I stood back to admire the garden I'd spent years building. It was tall and green and filled with flowers.
Bright yellow sunflowers towering overhead. Happy.
I leaned forward onto the tips of my toes to smell the big yellow blossoms, anticipating their fragrance.
No scent.
Reached up to touch a petal between forefinger and thumb. Rubbed gently, only to feel the fabric of faux-ness touch my skin.
In the middle of the garden, a hole. Visible only to the few invited in.
While building the garden I'd fall into the hole, feeling like I'd tripped, each time wondering if I'd hit the bottom. Each time climbing out as quickly as I could, pretending it never happened. Lifting my head high to admire the faux flowers.
Until the time I crashed all the way down.
Hit so hard I couldn't even ask if it was bottom. So hard. So hurt. Creeping was the only way out. Slowly, slowly I made my way up to flat land. Light.
And then I saw them...
Wildflowers of all different colours. True beauty skimming the garden floor. Natural. Quiet. Easy. There.
And so it began. The slow journey of removing all I had built to make way for that which blossoms naturally. The grace that is always there.
wen xo
for a while, these seemed important
Honours Bachelor of Commerce degree from McMaster University
Respected Sales Representative at IBM
Sought-after image consultant for fifteen years… hired by other consultants for guidance and a go-to expert for Tourism Toronto, Vogue, BBC, Forbes and GQ to name a few
then I found these tools to guide me
6/2 Splenic Projector in Human Design
Aries sun, Capricorn moon, Leo rising
Active participant of Byron Katie’s “The Work”
Millennial Elder aka Xennial (birth year is 1981)
Neurodivergent explorings
…to what truly matters, the wildflowers
Playing with colours and shapes
Following the guidance of my inner knowing (no matter how scary)
Immersion in one-ness with nature
All is love
There is grace in every moment
thanks for being here.
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